So much has happened since my last post.

October seems to always be a sad month for me. A year ago, an old friend of mine passed away from breast cancer in October 2022. This month has been drastic. Waking up at 6 am to a text from my SO, telling me his mom passed away in the middle night. I was heart broken for him. I knew how much his mother loved him. I couldn't imagine losing my mother. I couldn't even relate through all the emotions he was going through. At first when he called me, I don't even think it hit him yet. He sounded so calm, and all I could hear was his sisters crying in the background. Death is real !! And it's random. We can never plan for death. This going to be a long post. So I knew I had to be there for him. So I booked a flight to Haiti ASAP. I took 4 days off from work, and even though I knew Haiti isn't safest place to be right now, I just knew I had to be there. Due to political unrest and gang violence, Haiti is in shambles. Once I booked the ticket, my anxiety wen through the roof. I couldn't stop thinking, "what if something happens"? Now mind you, I go to Haiti all the time. But for some reason, this time I was scared. So he also asked me to buy the dress she was going to be buried in. I was honored that he wanted me to do it. This is the first time I did something like this. It was a long white dress, with long sleeves. It was a beautiful dress. The day of the funeral, when they opened the casket, she looked like she was sleeping on a white cloud. She didn't look like she was sick, or hurt before death. She just looked like she was asleep. Like sleeping peacefully and no longer in pain. His mom had high blood pressure, and diabetes. If she lived in the united states, where she would have had access to better healthcare, she probably would have lived a longer life. Due to Haiti' violence, access to quality healthcare isn't easy. I went to Haiti for three days, and came back safely. I thank God for that. I'm going to always be there for the people that I love and care for. This is just who I am. I can't change who I am. I hope that one day if I ever am going through the same thing, someone will be there for me.